Archive for March 25th, 2010

Where do I start?!  I’m frustrated and having a bad day so please bear with me.

My eyes were dry and a little itchy last night when I was out with Mom and Dad.  I thought it was because I’d had my contacts in since 4am and it was after 9pm.  I definitely didn’t think that it was anything serious.  Well, I was wrong!  I woke up this morning with red, itchy and sensitive eyes.  Could it be happening AGAIN?!  I grabbed the wetting drops and started flushing them out.  It wasn’t helping quick enough so I laid back down in bed.  Sleep always helps when my eyes are sore – - I’m sure its the fact of closing them but I always end up asleep.

I finally got out of bed a little after 11am.  I had to figure out a way to function.  I had to get to the gym.  I was not letting this stop me.  I’m TWO pounds from my goal dammit!  When I came downstairs mom had all the blinds open and that’s when I knew for sure that the sensitivity to light was real!  I asked mom to close the blinds and I grabbed my sunglasses.  It worked for a little bit.

About noon I got the bright idea to try contacts.  Maybe putting a barrier between my eyeball and eyelid would help?!  It felt good for a bit but within 15 minutes it was worse so I popped those out quickly.

I put in more eye drops and laid down on the couch for an hour.  At 1pm it was time to eat some lunch and get ready to head to the gym.  I was determined.  I wore my glasses and then propped up my sunglasses on top of those.  I drove myself to the gym.  It was slow going but I made it.  Of course when I left the house the sun came out in full force.  It was not making this any easier.

Kevin was with another client so I hit the treadmill.  I walked up hill – incline of 10.0 for about 20 minutes.  Then I got off and talked to him in his office.  He said he noticed that my eyes were a little red yesterday afternoon but just thought I’d been crying about my weigh-in results.  He said he was impressed that I was there and that I should have just called him to reschedule.  But he also knows how much I WANT this.  How hard I’ve worked and that I’ll let NOTHING stand in my way of my goals!

Needless to say, he sent me home!  I slowly drove home – - like a senior citizen out for a Sunday drive

The only thing that I can think of is that I wore MASCARA for the video yesterday and it wasn’t a new tube.  Could it be something in it?  Could it be allergies?  But when I’ve had allergies in the past its typically only one eye and this time its both!  YES, the mascara is now in the trash.  So, for now I’m assuming its something in the Mascara.  I just can’t pinpoint what it is!

When I got home, I changed into comfy clothes and hit the couch.  This time I put the ice pack over my towel to help numb it.  I had really strained them to drive to and from the gym.  I fell asleep on the couch until about 6pm when Dad came home from work.

I just have to keep flushing these crazy eyes and hope it passes soon.  The last time I had the big allergic reaction I saw the doctor a total of 6 times.  The first 3 times all he had me to was flush them with solution.  So, I’m doing that and being careful.  Not wearing my contacts and hoping that it passes.  If it gets worse then I’ll call the doctor, again!

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Today was the first day that I documented all that I ate along with the TIME!  Kevin wants to make sure that I’m spacing it out and of course eating enough calories.  Today might have been a bad day to start this but its now or never!  I ate every time I was awake but I wasn’t awake very long today.  Oh well, at least I did something positive for this crazy weightloss crusade that I’m on